Wow today was fun fun fun. Just great, just grand. For awhile I thought Jamie was mad at me but I was wrong, I think, I don't know doesnt matter! Lindsay wore my jacket today, silly Lindsay, we had sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much fun on hte bus, like always. She read my sucky Coco book in progress, was funny. She did a really good job presentign today, so did Cameron, who is so friggin awesome. I got a monologue in Drama today and It is so great It's exactly the kind of character I can relate to

I don't think people see me. I get this feeling sometimes like I'm invisible or something. I can be standing there in a room and I'm talking and everything, and it's like my words aren't getting anywhere and I look down at myself and jesus, sometimes my body isn't getting anywhere either. It's like I'm standing behind a one-way mirror and I can see the guys and I can hear the guys, but they can't see me and they can't hear me. And I start to wonder if maybe I'm ugly or something, like maybe I'm some alien species from another planet and I don't speak the language and I look totally weird. But I don't know this, you see, because on this other planet I had this really nice mother who told me I was beautiful and that I had a voice to die for because she loved me so much, not because it was true. And I arrive here on Earth and I'm so filled with her love and her belief in me that I walk around like I'm beautiful and I sing like I have a voice to die for. And because I'm so convinced and so strange and so deluded, people pretend to listen to me... because they're being polite or something -- or maybe they're afraid of me. And at first I don't notice because I sing with my eyes closed. But then one day I open my eyes and find out I'm living in this world where nobody sees me and nobody hears me.

(Beat.)

I'm just looking' for that one guy who's gonna hear me, see me... really take a chance. I mean, I hear them. I'm listening so hard I hear promises when somebody's just sayin' hello. Jesus, if anybody ever heard what I've got locked up inside me... I'd be a star.

Cameron and I had such a great conversation after school, he gets cooler everyday and I have finally put to rest the rumor that we are going out. I hate rumors and labelism and prejudice sooooo much. I gave Will a folder today with a tech deck dude on it with rasta on his bob marley hat, he was estatic. I have no idea what I'm typing and it's all typoish. Oh well HAve homework today, tomorrow i have an ortho, god i hate my teeth, but oh for once i'm high on life? Why..... the music! Nortmally i'd say getting high off the music and low off everything else but today I'm high on life and higher off the music ~~ Niki

P.S. Ella Fitzgeral ROCKS!

The Following is one of the BEST conversations I've had in a long while

SquekyNewKicks: hello

PhillyFeathers: hey

SquekyNewKicks: I have a few questions about the coconut family

PhillyFeathers: ok, shoor

PhillyFeathers: *shoot

SquekyNewKicks: if people are going out, are they automatically married?

PhillyFeathers: no

PhillyFeathers: and if they are married they don't have to go out either

SquekyNewKicks: ok

SquekyNewKicks: and

SquekyNewKicks: is it ok for me to write a book?

SquekyNewKicks: it has 3 chapters already

PhillyFeathers: yes it would be fine!

PhillyFeathers: there are some short rules of course, 1: You cannot include Mrs. Wooddell in any way and 2: if anything big happens you have to check with either me or lindsay first unless it doesnt effect our books

SquekyNewKicks: not yalls books

SquekyNewKicks: its the story of my life

PhillyFeathers: ok

SquekyNewKicks: starting from the day i killed my father

PhillyFeathers: ok

SquekyNewKicks: and was adopted by the coconut family

SquekyNewKicks: sound good?

SquekyNewKicks: i'll let you read it tommorrow

PhillyFeathers: yes

PhillyFeathers: ok thanks, I'll let you read TOMS tomorrow

SquekyNewKicks: ?

PhillyFeathers: THe Offer, Mafanut Style

SquekyNewKicks: cool

PhillyFeathers: hey do you like pac man?

SquekyNewKicks: yeah

PhillyFeathers: cool

SquekyNewKicks: why?

PhillyFeathers: just curios

SquekyNewKicks: cool

PhillyFeathers: i hate waking up in the morning

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

SquekyNewKicks: i woke up at 7 this morning

PhillyFeathers: loser

PhillyFeathers: i woke up at 11

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

SquekyNewKicks: cool

SquekyNewKicks: Edward Teller was a fine fella, born in Budhapest, grew up to be a killer, he made the h-bomb in 52, and was the senior research fellow at hoover u.

PhillyFeathers: lol thats great

SquekyNewKicks: thats all ive got

PhillyFeathers: it's still great

SquekyNewKicks: but ive made my costume, my 3 pages of research paper, my 3d model, oral report, but im not sure what i need for the poster, or the rest of the paper

PhillyFeathers: aww

SquekyNewKicks: do you know?

PhillyFeathers: do you have the introduction, cocnlusion, table of contents, title page

SquekyNewKicks: how long is the conclusion?

PhillyFeathers: like a paragraph

PhillyFeathers: hold on let me check my sience notes

PhillyFeathers: i couldnt find my notes

SquekyNewKicks: me niether

PhillyFeathers: oh and in you're coconut book, don't be afraid ot add lights, violence, gambling, debt, sex, prostitution and all that fun stuff

SquekyNewKicks: dont you wory your pretty little head about that

PhillyFeathers: ok.......

SquekyNewKicks:

PhillyFeathers: hoorah look at my new and improve profile

SquekyNewKicks: cool

SquekyNewKicks: me likey

PhillyFeathers: hoorah

SquekyNewKicks:

PhillyFeathers: i like you're buddy icon

SquekyNewKicks: thanks

SquekyNewKicks: but yours is perfetc

PhillyFeathers: haha nice one

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

PhillyFeathers: look at mine now

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

SquekyNewKicks: sweet

PhillyFeathers: you caley n cameron are all gonna hafta come over here one day

SquekyNewKicks: ok!

SquekyNewKicks:

PhillyFeathers: thatd be soooo fun

SquekyNewKicks: yes it would

PhillyFeathers: and we can play pacman!

SquekyNewKicks: if me and cameron werent pansified chickens

SquekyNewKicks: thats twice the pansy

SquekyNewKicks: TWICE THE PANSY!!!!!

SquekyNewKicks: FOR EACH OF US!!!

PhillyFeathers: you're ot a pansy

PhillyFeathers: *not

SquekyNewKicks: thats a very mature decision

PhillyFeathers: you're a venus fly trap!

SquekyNewKicks: im a scared little boy in a grown up world

PhillyFeathers: awwww *gives hiatt a cookie* there there

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

PhillyFeathers: I"m bringing my comb tomorrow....

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

SquekyNewKicks: cool

PhillyFeathers: hooray

PhillyFeathers: its pretty and green

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

PhillyFeathers: and oh so sirene

PhillyFeathers: like a big fat bean

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

PhillyFeathers: wow i just found one of my old novelettes last night

SquekyNewKicks: cool

SquekyNewKicks: how long is it?

PhillyFeathers: 70 pgs

PhillyFeathers: about

SquekyNewKicks: wow

SquekyNewKicks: is it one you would allow friends to read?

PhillyFeathers: yeah if i hadnt deleted it

SquekyNewKicks: what???/

SquekyNewKicks: just now????????

PhillyFeathers: it wasnt all that good so i deleted it last night

PhillyFeathers: I'll write a new one

SquekyNewKicks: holy shit

PhillyFeathers: hmmmmmmmm

SquekyNewKicks: the longest thing ive ever written, besides this book im working on, was like, ten pages,

SquekyNewKicks: and i think that was longer, cuz this is on small pages

PhillyFeathers: really now

SquekyNewKicks: yes

SquekyNewKicks: really now

PhillyFeathers: fascinating

PhillyFeathers:

SquekyNewKicks: how many novellettes have you written?

PhillyFeathers: only about 3, all of them really bad

SquekyNewKicks: they cant be bad

SquekyNewKicks: not if you wrote them,

PhillyFeathers: ha thats funny

SquekyNewKicks: no its serious

PhillyFeathers: ly funny

SquekyNewKicks: ly?

PhillyFeathers: yes seriously

SquekyNewKicks: no

SquekyNewKicks: i didnt know what that meant

SquekyNewKicks: its not supposed to be funny!

PhillyFeathers: well it is, mr funny man!

SquekyNewKicks: no!

PhillyFeathers: you wanan read some really good poetry

SquekyNewKicks: sure

PhillyFeathers: It's by one of my all time faaavorite poets i love every single ting he has written

PhillyFeathers: Dimensions of an object
so flimsy, insecure.
that which to a discerning mind
would seem a mess I'm sure.
A fleeting grasp of essence
you fly across the room
emboldened by this curious act
your mind soon follows you.
you've set yourself to thinking
you've got it figured out
but then you are confused again
your heart has been torn out. (more stuff that I wont put here)

SquekyNewKicks: who wrote that?

PhillyFeathers: you

SquekyNewKicks: i know

PhillyFeathers: =)

SquekyNewKicks: but i entered it as J. S. Cole

SquekyNewKicks: so how did you know?

PhillyFeathers:

SquekyNewKicks: ?

PhillyFeathers:

SquekyNewKicks:

PhillyFeathers: good stuff there

SquekyNewKicks: thanks

SquekyNewKicks: its like the only good thing ive written in 2 years

PhillyFeathers: I doubt that

SquekyNewKicks: hm.

PhillyFeathers: Hiatt you speak in poetry, you're words are poetry and though sometimes you may not write it down you've still written some of the best poems i've ever heard, if you catch my drift wood

SquekyNewKicks: driftwood

SquekyNewKicks: cool

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

PhillyFeathers:

SquekyNewKicks: thanks

SquekyNewKicks: i appreciate that

PhillyFeathers: well you should appreiate that!

SquekyNewKicks: but i dont remember showing that poem to you, or anyone other than my family

SquekyNewKicks: so...?

PhillyFeathers:

PhillyFeathers: I have my ways

SquekyNewKicks: do you often read europian publications?

PhillyFeathers: ................ nope

PhillyFeathers:

PhillyFeathers: maybe i guessed it, maybe i went through your locker and found it, maybe I had a sneaky little thief give it to me, maybe I searched on the internet night after night, but hiatt do know this, I have my ways!

SquekyNewKicks: HOW DID YOU FIND THAT POEMMM!!!!!?!?>!>>!>!>!?!?!?!??!?!

Auto response from PhillyFeathers: BE GONE

SquekyNewKicks: no

PhillyFeathers: sorry the away message was on for the effect

SquekyNewKicks: ok

PhillyFeathers: It's this new technology called poetry.com my friend.... lol

SquekyNewKicks: but...i didnt put my real name on it

PhillyFeathers: or did you

SquekyNewKicks:

SquekyNewKicks: FUCK!

SquekyNewKicks: BEANS!

SquekyNewKicks: that was it wasnt it?

PhillyFeathers:

SquekyNewKicks: ok cool

PhillyFeathers: teehee

PhillyFeathers: but hey i really enjoyed that

SquekyNewKicks: cool

PhillyFeathers: i especially enjoyed taunting you

SquekyNewKicks:

Auto response from PhillyFeathers: Organized crime in America takes in over forty billion dollars a year. This is quite a profitable sum, especially when one consider that the Mafia spends very little for office supplies.
Author: Woody Allen 1935-, American Director, Screenwriter, Actor, Comedian

SquekyNewKicks: cool

PhillyFeathers: back

SquekyNewKicks: coolio

PhillyFeathers: hoorah i'm very happy

SquekyNewKicks: why?

PhillyFeathers: i may be able to invite like 7 friends over on my b-day just to chill at my house and eat and laugh and joke and play and be merry

SquekyNewKicks: sweet

PhillyFeathers: you being one of them

SquekyNewKicks: sweet

PhillyFeathers: my mum said i can invite guys she knows and or trusts (She trusts you n Cameron so hoorah) and as long as there is an even amount of people so no one gets left out its all grand

SquekyNewKicks: sweet

PhillyFeathers: fun times

SquekyNewKicks: SWEET!!!!

PhillyFeathers: you're birthdays coming up in't it

SquekyNewKicks: yep

PhillyFeathers: when? I'm gonna get you a presn't

SquekyNewKicks: the 20th

PhillyFeathers: cool stuff, so do you prefer an over the shoulder type purse or armpit? lol

SquekyNewKicks: uh...

SquekyNewKicks: =-O

PhillyFeathers: im kidding

SquekyNewKicks: i know

PhillyFeathers: I"ll get you something manly!

PhillyFeathers: like a plum

SquekyNewKicks: hahaha

PhillyFeathers: sooo.... hiatt

PhillyFeathers: so where do you stand on the death penalty?

SquekyNewKicks: generally on top of it

SquekyNewKicks: kinda like on the floor

PhillyFeathers: ok so how would history and culture change if the beatles were black

SquekyNewKicks: everything would be black music

PhillyFeathers: so what would you do with an extra arm?

SquekyNewKicks: depends on where it was

PhillyFeathers: choose any place

SquekyNewKicks: hm

SquekyNewKicks: if it was off my shoulder,

PhillyFeathers: yesssssss

SquekyNewKicks: id probably use it to cuddle, play guitar, and eat faster

PhillyFeathers: alright!

PhillyFeathers: k what would you do if you found a cursed hand in a shoebox under yourbed that was worth tons of moolah on ebay but if you sold it you'd be cursed

SquekyNewKicks: burn it

PhillyFeathers: Lright next question if you could be a gurlie for one day what would you do?

SquekyNewKicks: get some gossip, and be a lesbo

PhillyFeathers: of course

PhillyFeathers: colleens answer was much more interesting might i say

SquekyNewKicks: ?

SquekyNewKicks: really?

PhillyFeathers: yes

PhillyFeathers: if you had to rename the harry potter books and you;d never red them what would you name them?

SquekyNewKicks: magic sticks

PhillyFeathers: if you has unlimited pipecleaners what would you make with the,

PhillyFeathers: *them

SquekyNewKicks: clothing

SquekyNewKicks: and a 1980 pacer

PhillyFeathers: what color foot do you think humans should have

SquekyNewKicks: black

SquekyNewKicks: starting aty the ankle

PhillyFeathers: ok

PhillyFeathers: if cheesecake (the actual desert) could come in any flavor what flavor would it be

SquekyNewKicks: caley:-[

PhillyFeathers: aw

PhillyFeathers: how many fingers do you wish you had

SquekyNewKicks: seven on my left hand

PhillyFeathers: why

SquekyNewKicks: so i could reach the bridge section in crazy train easier

PhillyFeathers: nope wrong, colleen was right

SquekyNewKicks: ?

PhillyFeathers: 6, WE COULD ALL USE AN EXTRA FLICK YOU OFF FINGER, THE WORLD IS SO HAGARD

PhillyFeathers: that was a colleen quote

PhillyFeathers: so don't steal it

PhillyFeathers: you

SquekyNewKicks: cool

SquekyNewKicks: any more questions?

PhillyFeathers: want me to think of some?

SquekyNewKicks: yes please!

PhillyFeathers: ok

SquekyNewKicks: i like being intervued

PhillyFeathers: If coke could have one extra ingredient what would it be

PhillyFeathers: hello!!!!!

SquekyNewKicks: ingredient?

SquekyNewKicks: in what?

PhillyFeathers: coke!

PhillyFeathers: coca cola?

SquekyNewKicks: oh

SquekyNewKicks: ok

PhillyFeathers: silly kid

SquekyNewKicks: i would add more sugar

PhillyFeathers: ok

PhillyFeathers: What would eb the cheesiest tabloid article ever

SquekyNewKicks: ten year old boy meets cow for the first time!

PhillyFeathers: good show

SquekyNewKicks: thanks

PhillyFeathers: ok you just got hired at mcdonalds and you feel like something bad is going on, you sneak into you're bosses office where yo uhear some strange noises, inside is __________________________. Fill i nthe blank